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damn it's been too long...   
10:15pm 18/05/2006
mood: blah
i don't know how i ever got into this livejournal business... but somehow i came back to it. i even got to review on what i've missed... i.e. papapotamus said how he wants us to all stay young... damn i wish... time is slipping by way too fast. soon we'll all have our own separate lives. *sigh* shit happens, right?

i last left this place complaining about some dude. man did my heart break... but so much time has gone by, today just so happens to be my 7-month with someone else... lucky me, to have mr. jake as my vewy own. never thought i could open my heart up again like that, but then he came along. gotta admit tho, falling in love was the easy part. it seems to have gotten harder. things get complicated... but i guess that's what keeps the relationship interesting. who cares... i love him, that's all that matters. i think by now everyone knows i left oviedo to live in windermere... it sucks out here, missing all of my friends, dana... chris... my boyfriend, jake. it's not the same. i'm ALWAYS lonely and miserable. it never goes away. i get those chances to see them... and it's never long enough. seems the only cure is to start going back to school, so i can move back in with my cousins who live closer. what the hell am i talking about???

ehh fuck it...
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here in yearbook   
08:33am 09/03/2005
mood: anxious
so i'm here... skipping first period, in yearbook. found a stray dog this morning at school, and being the good semaratins we are, lippy and i brought him back to his house. (is that considered trespassing if we snuck into their backyard?) thank goodness for him, he's got balls to even approach the dog. anywho, then off to breakfast where we find jill and hang out for a little while. damn FCATers are everywhere... why did i even show up? now i'm here... bored outta my mind waiting for the day to end. yes, it just begun, but screw you guys, i'm tired.

tell me if this does not sound appauling. so i was asked to go to my friend's prom the weekend before mine, and when i talked to my parents about it, they said it was all good, and they would let me go. BUT, surprisingly, his parents are different. more asian than ever. they think that something may be going on between us if we went together, so here he is finding a way for me to be his date such as sneaking around and meeting me somewhere (which i think would be stOOpid, so eff that). it's friggen prom... they shouldn't care that much. plus i'm not counting on anything happening the night of.

my case on my prom situation is still at hand. working on it, it's in progress, but i'm not sure how far i am yet. i could just be right there but too afraid to take the plunge. we could both be effing around knowing we wanna go together, but still both shy. any tips?

alrighty kiddos, i'm off... so... yeah... see you later.

later on loves <>

p.s. sharing is caring.
12:17pm 05/03/2005
mood: confused
okay, what was i thinking??? i'm too chicken shit to get the job done. but what am i supposed to do when i'm getting confused because this person can't effing just let me know what they're thinking? i'd ask what's going on, but i don't have the balls to do that either. mixed signals SUCK, don't send them off.

so i got asked to prom... quite a few times... and i said no everytime. because the one person i want to go with possibly already has a date. yayy for good luck...

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clean getaway   
11:26pm 15/01/2005
mood: cheerful
spontaneous getaway = successful :)
it was quite amazing. the company, the surroundings, the beach, the non-planning of events, the not-so sleeping situations ;), the laughing, yup, it was all nice. :D

welp, that's it.

later on loves <>
so we're hours awake and our only mistake is we bleed   
09:02am 09/01/2005
mood: confused
i think i rely too much on hopes. even tho nothing's happening, i still hope for the best. sometimes in the back of my head knowing it just might not happen. right now? i'm hoping for too much. and there's a 50/50 chance i'll get disappointed. bah... thoughts???

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p.s. found out my dad's gonna be in georgia all next weekend... that's gotta be a perk.
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you've made a fool of everyone   
09:01am 08/01/2005
mood: devious
i hate being the first one to wake up every saturday morning.

i'm in the process of sorting out a very devious plan. *evil laugh* i know what you're thinking, she never plans... plus, planning only leads to, well, everything not going according to plan. so i guess you can say i have a very devious idea in mind ;) i hope it works out, if it does, the next couple months will be set.

i'm craving:
- a car
- the beach *sigh*
- a road trip
- tender loving care

meh... it happens.

i'm off to play some grand theft auto, yes sir!

later on loves <>
end of the year survey   
12:48pm 29/12/2004
mood: awake
i copied this from someone... deleted a bunch of them 'cause they seemed like gay questions... but here we go >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before? uhh... remains... uhh... unsaid.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? none last year, should make one this year.

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? a special someone i've had in mind for awhile... ;)

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? hmm... gotta be dec. 17. not only was it my close enough of a friend to be my sister's 23rd birthday, but i was also "forced" to spend the night with her amazing cousin brian, which ended up being... well... amazing.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? staying alive.

9. What was your biggest failure? too many to name.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? every one of my friends :)

14. Where did most of your money go? christmas presents :)

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? haha once again, seeing him ;)

16. What song will always remind you of 2004? songs remind you of certain years?

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? happier
ii. thinner or fatter? thinner... i hope
iii. richer or poorer? richer??? (in a spiritual sense)

18. What do you wish you'd done more of? playing tennis, working out, focusing, paying attention...

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? my bad habits...

21. Did you fall in love in 2004? nope

22. How many one-night stands? none...

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? actually, no.

26. What was your greatest musical discovery? hmm... tough one.

27. What did you want and get? *giggle* ;)

28. What was your favorite film of this year? no idea.

30. What is at least one thing that would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? couldn't just name one...

32. What kept you sane? music and friends. plain and simple.

35. Who did you miss the most this year? gonna be missing the whitlocks... it happens.

36. Who was the best new person you met? lots.

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004: whatever happens, happens.

k, it's your turn...
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rock on   
11:04am 27/12/2004
mood: copasetic
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*sigh* :)   
12:29am 20/12/2004
mood: cheerful
this weekend = amazing.

nuff said ;)

later on loves <>

p.s. brian, if you're reading this, at least leave a message ;)
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03:11pm 17/12/2004
mood: accomplished
uhh... still in yearbook. the vacation will officially start in... T - 2 hours? i dunno. i'm hungry and all i have is cookies that no one ate for the parties we had.


okay, bye.

later on loves <>
it's time for you to choose, the bullet or the chapstick   
10:01am 12/12/2004
mood: blah
somebody light up a fricken fire in this place. it's FREEZING!

alright, so i definitely have to get back on track with shopping... joanne's graduation is monday... OH SHIT, THAT'S TOMORROW! then her bday is friday, which i think i got covered for the meantime... is there a point to buying something for your secret santa when you have no idea who they are? or at least, you've known before, and they've neglected to remember who you are. uhh... here's 5 bucks.

other than that, the weekend wasn't too bad. got a full 11 hours of sleep last night. my dreams were interesting, yet confusing. damn that psychology class... makes you think.

later on loves <>
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thanks guys :)   
03:04pm 03/12/2004
mood: good
mission: accomplished :)

ski, you the man.
dana, you've been so amazing.
ashton, you kick ass.
amelia, you're awesome.
cliff, you're incredible.
seanor, you're magnificent.
lippy, go kick some ass. ;)

nuff said.

later on loves <>

*Thanks Again*
psychology rules   
10:11pm 27/11/2004
mood: creative
hope everyone's turkey day was good. mine wasn't too bad. ended up at a bigass yearly party during the afternoon where i ended up playing football in high heels. awesome. then back home for a family dinner just the four of us. the weekend's going by pretty slow, and that's a good thing. gotta finish shopping already. christmas is coming guys... what the...

later on loves <>

what do you think of this idea for my anatomy project:
a skeleton with a halo and wings with lights and stuff as a tree topper?
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i'll be the end of everyone who's ever entered your life...   
05:31pm 24/11/2004
mood: blah
so looks like we're going to europe for the summer. i need to take someone with me... any takers? joanne and sharon are bringing a couple of their friends, so we'll just have to hang with them ;) seriously tho, i don't wanna be an odd wheel out. come with!

and uhh.. yeah, that's it.

hope everyone has an awesome Thanksgiving :)

later on loves <>
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imagine all the people   
09:09pm 22/11/2004
mood: copasetic
hanging with joanne and sharon... bored as crap. we all just worked out, and ate... we feel like working out again.

'you may say i'm a dreamer, but i'm not the only one'

Joanne - "man the lead singer is like, butt ugly, but he's got the awesomest voice..."
Sharon - "when you start running, does it feel dreadful sometimes, but after 8 minutes, it goes away?"
Joanne - "yeah but once you start it goes away"
Joanne - "she wants to do his homework... 'cause his homework is mighty fine"
Sharon - "jo, should we do what we did last time, hold her back, and press submit?"

how random...

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why are you reading this?   
04:03pm 18/11/2004
mood: full
so there's this tradition in the philippines where when you turn 18, they have what you call a "Debut". like a coming out party i guess you can say. my dad likes to leave out the part where i can start 'courting'. it's a big party/ball where i wear a dress i wouldn't be able to breathe in, and everyone's there to celebrate that i'm a "lady". thing is, it would be held in the philippines, and i'd like for not just my family to be there. my dad agreed to pay for my friend's hotel rooms if my they would wanna come. it'd be after graduation... somewhere over the summer.

then again, if none of this happens, we go to europe instead...

later on loves <>
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04:52pm 15/11/2004
mood: curious
for the first time i didn't wanna leave class. as soon as it got interesting, we were dismissed. oh well, better luck next time.

let's see... applying for college sucks.
me and dana are gonna start playing tennis again. (let's get in shape before the holiday season arrives... please!)

i feel like i'm on cloud 9. well, all of you thought i was today. it's always good to feel some kind of natural high. the cause? unknown. hope to discover what it is soon.

final thought:
change is good.

later on loves <>
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it's been awhile   
02:30am 14/11/2004
mood: content
it's 2.31 am, on the phone with a friend from miami. he has a sore throat. i told him to gargle with salt and hot water. let's hope it works. "my throat feels better already." *sweet*

my stomach hurts...

wish i could've had a more interesting entry. oh well.

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what is that smell?   
07:16pm 12/07/2004
mood: blah
at mom's work. gonna do some homework for her. eric's my partner in crime tonight.

nothing's really changed the last couple weeks.

i miss everyone!

school starts in... 3 weeks? bullshit...

off to work ;)

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stop touching me   
03:35pm 28/06/2004
mood: horny
at eric's... we're having fun.

i need a new nickname.

nuff said.

later on loves <>